Dear Mother and Father,
When you wake up tomorrow morning I will not be here. I shall be in Elsewhere, where I truly belong, without you. I know it sounds harsh, but in this new place I might have a family who actually cares about me. The reason as to why I am leaving you is because I just cannot take it any longer over here. It is driving me insane. You wouldn't understand, I know you don't have feelings. But I do. By the way Mom and Dad, I have stopped taking the pills for my stirrings for a few months now, and I enjoy having stirrings. I have taken Gabriel with me, since you "Father", would have murdered him. Did you know that release is just like murder? I just need to leave you because both of you do not love me. Do you remember when I asked you if you loved me? Do you remember what you said? You told me that love is a strong word. You said you enjoyed me. You ENJOYED me. Do you know how much that hurt? You don't love me. Of course love is a strong word, it is a strong emotion. But yet again you wouldn't understand that until I am long gone. I must say that I will miss Lily, Asher and Fiona, but I am not too sure about you two. You don't even love me. And Father, you are a murderer. How could you lie to me like that? You just go and kill babies! That is definitely not the release that I imagined! But oh well, for now it does not matter. I just have to go, I simply cannot stay in a world like this. I know that you will not tell people about this or else it would be a bad thing and people would gossip about your "parenting skills." I suppose you will tell The Elders after the ceremony. Don't worry and fret, now that I am a twelve, people will not expect me to sit with you anymore. And Gabriel would be dead right now, thanks to you "Father". But I have saved him. You will not even miss me, you will probably just get another replacement child. And that hurts my feelings.
Now you may be thinking, what are emotions and feelings? You know nothing. Simply nothing. You may think you have experienced "anger", "pain" and many more simple things. But you are wrong. For I, Jonas, have experienced pain. Pain beyond belief and imagination. I have also experienced color. Of course I cannot explain color but think of it as "Seeing Beyond." I have experienced starvation, physical pain, mental pain, everything you can name I have felt that. Physical pain is the worst. I once broke my leg, I was once dying in war too. But there was no relief of pain for me. No, none at all. But alas, I have also experienced happy things. Truly happy things. A Birthday Party was one of them. It is where one single child would be singled out and everyone would celebrate. Everybody would have one day. Even the adults (that is you older people.) There was also weather. Of course you do not know what weather is. Well, weather is rain, snow, hot, cold, sunny and many more things. Snow is white (that is one of the colors), squishy, soft and very cold. I cannot explain it. But soon you will get all the memories. For when I leave, this big burden will be on everyone and I hope you will find true happiness.
Your society is dumb, if I do say so myself. Honestly there is no choice in anything. Besides, there is no freedom. Life is boring. Yes, I know that you do not think so, but it is a simple fact. Even though you may not know it. Well not yet anyway. But soon enough you will. Definitely. For you see, when I leave, my memories will leave me. They will travel to you. All of you. Then everyone can experience pain, love, and basically all colors and emotions. I won't go into too much detail about colors or weather. Not to mention music. It sounds beautiful. You will experience it soon enough.
When I was recieving these memories it was painful for me. And yes, it will be painful for you too. But every now and then we have to learn how to deal with pain. How can you live life without experiencing love, pain, success, failure and happiness? If you do not experience these things, then you have not really lived your life to it's fullest potential.
Wish me luck in Elsewhere. I do not expect the journey to be easy. But I am brave, so once again, please wish me luck. I know you probably do not know what luck is, but you will. Soon enough when you have the burden of bearing all those wretched memories. Good luck with that by the way. For your information once you experience these memories you will learn that you love me. But do not ever, EVER expect me to come back. You have hurt me when you pretty much told me you did not love me. And do not think I will forgive you for that. Because I never will. Now do not try and go looking for me, you won't ever find me. And if you do, I will not come back to you. Gabriel will not either. We will live a happy new life in Elsewhere.
I wonder what life will be like in Elsewhere. It sure will be better than here, now that is for certain. A pleasent family may adopt me and Gabriel. They would have to adopt us both, since Gabriel cannot sleep without me. So Gabriel will be like the brother I have never had. I must say though that I will miss my dwelling. "Our" dwelling. I will also miss Fiona and Asher, and especially The Giver. I will miss Asher's playful funny attitude, and Fiona's sweet but subtle comments, but most of all, I will miss The Giver. You, Mother and Father, do not know how important The Giver is to me. He is like the Father I have never had. And probably never will have. For no man is greater than The Giver himself. But I am worried about Gabriel. I wonder if he would be able to "See Beyond" in this new community. Or even "Taste Beyond", "Hear Beyond", "Smell Beyond" and "Touch Beyond." I know that Gabriel and I would fit in. Yes, with our unique yet intelligent souls we could get along swell anywhere in this planet we call Earth. I bet the school's in this new community will be different too! Perhaps we shan't have school anymore! Oh joy! Well, I cannot wait to make my long and tiring journey to the land of Elsewhere. I have this feeling that it will all be worth it.
Sincerly,
Jonas.
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